In a heartbreaking Slate post, a mother explains the everyday struggle that comes from having her spouse pass away. Her coping mechanism? Her phone, with all of he pictures and videos of her husband and their small family. These photo and video memories are how she reminds her son of his father and the short time they spent together before his death.
“My phone is my time machine, and the cool blue light that is undoubtedly destroying my circadian rhythms helps me slip easily into another life, the one where I’m 28 and recklessly, heedlessly in love with a man who makes me Robyn mix CDs and leaves them in my car. The one where I’m 29 again and pregnant with the baby the doctors told me not to have but who I knew would keep my husband alive a little bit longer. Or the one where I’m 31 again, carrying the man I love down the hallway to the bathroom, staying up at night to hear his breath, knowing someday I would miss that gentle sound.”
It’s good to live life in the present, but there’s no denying the importance of holding on to beloved memories of the past.
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